another Letterman post

Other, better people have written/will write postmortems on Letterman and his impact. I haven’t watched the show in decades (it’s not a philosophical thing, I can’t watch local channels, it’s complicated), but I wanted to tell a little story about his impact on me. I’m sure it will come as a HUGE SHOCK that I …

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Things are on the way!

Hello earthlings! I like when people give me updates. I fancy that you might feel the same. Please do not let me know if I’m wrong. A while back (okay, a long while back) I told you we were recording. We were. But being me is a tiring thing, so things sometimes move slowly. At …

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Kubla Khan

I just woke up from the most incredible dream I’ve ever had. I mean, it was my “Xanadu” dream*, I’ve never dreamed anything like it. And while I tried to write down as much as I could, it was already fading by then and you can’t capture that stuff. Not really. So, now I tell …

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Trip to Peru cancelled.

So, due to medical factors (not overly serious) my trip to Peru has been cancelled at the last second. It’s been a rough few days of trying to readjust to that reality. There will be more rough days to come. But that’s the update for now. Things proceed the way they should proceed. Or that …

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t-minus 19 days

28 days off meds, 19 days until I leave for Peru. I feel displaced and uncomfortable in my skin. There are moments that I’m excited to go, and other moments of terror. On the whole, the excitement moments are losing. But I know this makes a difference, I know there’s an “other side” to this …

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Updates and free stuff!

Hi there. It’s me. I’m completely off Cymbalta this week. It’s pretty weird. I head for Peru in 45 days. I’ll try to keep updating as long as I’m able. Back in 2010, the process of weaning off meds left me unwilling to bother writing about what I was doing. I mean, there was lots …

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So, why the “rush” (HA) to finish the Peru story?

Because I’m going to Peru in November, and it felt like I really needed to finally close the door on the first trip. It’s not that I feel like I finished the process of learning, really, but I do feel like I’ve traveled as far down a particular road as I can alone and I …

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What happened in Peru? (Part 13)

Previously: The journey wrapped up. If you’ve been reading this whole time, you might be happy to know I’ve decided to be really direct, here at the end. Because otherwise, I will never get to the end of this thing. So, let’s review. I suffer from severe chronic depression. It landed me in a psych …

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What happened in Peru? (Part 12)

Previously: I said too much. I was re-reading earlier entries and noticed that, way back when (I started writing this in 2011… that’s pretty wacky, right?), I called my depression “largely situational and self-inflicted.” That may have been true at some point, but these days it seems definitively chemical. I’ve seen studies to suggest that …

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What happened in Peru? (part 11)

Previously: How Six Flags and Disney on Ice can totally scar a kid for life. Hi, there. I’m going to tell you some things that I don’t normally say outright. If you’ve come this far in this story then I think I can assume you’re willing to at least grant that the things I say are true …

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