18 Oct: Asheville

18 Oct – Grey Eagle (Asheville, NC)
w/ James McMurtry

I have asked Robyn, who will be coming on the Florida trip, to remind me later what I am saying on stage, since for the most part I am babbling and I don’t remember a bit of it later. The quote from this show:

“I’m prostituting myself just for you.”

We left early afternoon on Friday and hit a lot of traffic on the way up. Lee and Lyle were both sick and so the ride was pretty quiet. We got in an hour late but the headliner was still loading in so it was no big deal. I know who James McMurtry is (apart from being Larry McMurtry’s son), his first album came out back when I was working at BMG and it was being pushed hard to college at the time. I saw him while we were loading in, but I get the feeling he must be a pretty introverted person. We may have shared a slight head-nod in each other’s direction.

The club is strange in a good way. It was much bigger than I had expected, walking in you come into the large room that looks sort of like a VFW hall or something. The sound there is very good, nice raised stage. the people working there were very friendly (so was the eventual crowd). They set up and sound checked a song or two and then left. We set up and got a sound check as well, which was a surprise but good.

The crowd started to file in. The show was $15, so the people who were coming were obviously coming to see James’ band. They play this sort of poetic, intelligent stuff that is nonetheless very straightforward and sort of basic rock-based. Like a sort of Americanized Tragically Hip. Which is all well and good, but I started to worry about their reaction to us. I wasn’t quite ready to go the “Good ‘ol Blues Brothers Boys Band” route, but I thought maybe some effort to match the crowd might be a good idea.

I think in retrospect I was about half right.

We were opening with “King Sham” which I thought was a bit too pop so I swapped it with another song and put it in the middle. Of course, it seemed to get a big response when we finally played it, so I was off-base, I guess. The crowd were mostly older, and when we started I really didn’t know how we were going to go over, but they were very responsive. We played a little subdued, I think, in part because Lee and Lyle didn’t feel well, but I was also sort of restrained because I didn’t think the crowd would really go for me being too pop. I think in that instance I was right. Robyn says they were really impressed with “Jeff Lynne,” I can’t verify that.

In the end, I think the crowd didn’t expect much from us and they ended up pleasantly surprised. Unfortunately, “pleasantly surprised” doesn’t seem to translate into CD sales or people signing up for the mailing list. Still, there were a lot of people who came up after the set complimenting us. I was very good, I thought, and fought my natural urge to be shy and instead talked with people at length when they came up. I met two people who worked for the two entertainment weeklies, respectively. I talked for a while about guitars with a guy who’s girlfriend really liked James and so he was wandering around the club during his set, he had really liked our set. Meanwhile, Lee was getting sicker, I think, but still managed to get us paid for the show, which was not originally the deal. She says it’s much easier to be outright about this stuff when it’s not her band, so she went up and asked about our guarantee as if it was a given and he paid us. He also found me later and told me to let him know when we were going to be back in town, so (again, fighting my natural urge) I just asked how far ahead he booked and told him I’d call him this week to schedule another show.

I’m not sure how that will work, to be honest… from the photos on the wall they book mainly singer-songwriters and bands much like James McMurtry (in both instances). I don’t really fit that crowd, though I can apparently win them over to an extent. The one thing I did notice was that Josh Joplin’s photo was there, too, so I’m going to try to get in touch with him and see if he still plays there and if he’d be interested in doing a show together. Hell, if he’d be interested in doing a show together anywhere, really. I don’t know if he’s in any position right now to book like that, but I should have asked a while ago.

We crashed pretty much immediately afterwards at the hotel, on rollaways and a pull-out couch (this is a luxury compared to what we can expect in Florida, where we’ll have to rotate who gets the bed while the rest of us sleep on the floor). The drive back the next morning was good, Lee felt better and we talked most of the way back about music, bands, and crap like that. The sort of thing you’d expect band people to talk about, I suppose. But it was still good.

more booking complaints, collect them all

What is so frustrating is this…

Today I made calls to Athens, again, to try and verify these two clubs got kits and see about booking. I have been trying to get someone on the phone for the past month at both. One got the kit but is booked through Dec. and suggested the best shot I have is to book a show with a headliner. The other has changed booking people and needs a kit again. Neither seemed to know or care who I was, and the mention of Daemon Records didn’t change things. This has been typical of every venue so far.

Then thirty minutes later I’m on the phone with the IG manager’s office, about the Florida shows. They’re just letting me know the details, that we’re included in the catering, and other various details.

So, in just a few short weeks, I will be on the road in a van with the band. Opening for the Indigo Girls in front of an average of 2000 people a night for a week. Then I will come home to make more phone calls to deal with people who don’t know or care who I am and won’t book me. Meanwhile the CD has been out since September and I feel no momentum. No radio station in the southeast has added it to rotation. I can’t use that to book shows.

Am I just this bad at booking?

Sod it all. I’m just venting. Don’t mind me.

more band stuff, not trying to bore anyone

So, I am trying to take some sort of self-inventory about things at the moment. I can look back and realize this is more or less exactly how I wanted things to be going as far as work and music just a few months ago. I am doing freelance and have work to cover me until the end of the year, guaranteed. So, though I’m not exactly rolling in the dough, I’m paying bills in a timely fashion while still being able to be at home. I’m also able to go out of town to play a show at any point. I have out of town shows coming up, some of them big ones that I could not have booked on my own. Shows that really do constitute a small tour, and not of the variety that I have joked about having before (see: Nashville last month, or Florida a couple of years ago, when I played two Borders shows). Actual, real-live, “need to go out and rent a van so we can cart the equipment around and also we have to get rooms and blah blah blah” touring.

But while I can look at this and see that, yes, this is exactly what I was looking for, it’s also a bit deceiving, since after the Indigo Girls shows in November I’m back where I started from. I mean, hopefully, I will have sold some CDs, and made new fans, and possibly might be able to parlay those shows into shows for myself in Florida. But it’s not as if the guy booking a club in Asheville is going to know or care what I was doing in Florida. So, I will still be struggling as I am now in trying to get into these clubs.

Which is fine. It’s what I do, I actually understand that. Really, my point is, I know that it affects my desire to do this shit. To make these depressing calls and be ignored. And I need to really get the hell over it. Because I need to be busting my ass much more on this stuff. I want this thing to happen, to follow through, so badly. And the fear that I will pour this effort into it and begin to really get sucked into believing in it and then have it fizzle into nothing may be justified, but it’s also keeping me from pushing back as hard as I can.

I am hoping when I read this later it might remind me:
This shit is important, you asshole, so get back to work.