However, yesterday I came up with music that I am in love with, I haven’t done that in a really long time. I have forced myself to forget it after taping it, and am resisting the urge to go downstairs and listen and play it some more. I don’t want to get used to it until I have an idea.

And I have an overall idea in the formative stages for the next CD and I want to try and stay on track with the writing, so I’m afraid to touch the song until I have a clearer idea where I’m going.

Sometimes it seems bad that I’m already spending this kind of energy on the next CD when the current one isn’t finished yet. If the process hadn’t taken so long I suppose I wouldn’t be, and I need some sort of spark to get me back on track with the current one. This has been the biggest drawback to taking over a year to record this, I keep losing momentum in my head.

17 Feb: Atlanta

17 Feb – Eddie’s Attic (Atlanta, GA)
with Sue Witty, Gerlinda Grimes (from weaklazyliar)

This isn’t the first time, for some reason, that I’ve had to play a writers-in-the-round while sick with a cold or flu. I don’t know what the connection is. There are times that I think I should play all shows doped up or sick. I tend to be a lot less hard on myself than I normally am, and consequently I have a much looser, relaxed show.

But let’s start at the beginning…

Saturday night I went out to the newly rechristened 10 High (formerly the Dark Horse) to see weaklazyliar and sing backup on a couple of songs. I haven’t seen them do an all-out electric show in a long time, and I wondered if they were going to change the arrangements, but instead they played the new record from start to finish and kept it restrained and moody, which I think takes a hell of a lot more cajones. The new record is amazing and doesn’t need to be dressed up for a normal club crowd. They were closing for Doria Roberts, who had drawn the majority of the crowd. Which made it all the more odd that the crowd was talking, loudly, during the entire show, including Doria’s set. It seemed like they had come more to meet and greet than see her play, it was really odd to see.

Sunday was the writers-in-the round with Gerlinda and Sue. I was sick, it started to hit me before I went out saturday night to the show, but when I woke up Sunday morning I knew it was going to be a long haul for this show. When I loaded out to head to the club I took a nice big swig of Robutussin and hoped my voice would stay with me for the night.

Now, anyone reading this, please feel free to fill me in on how the show went, because, to be honest, I don’t recall much of it. I feel pretty sure my voice held out, which I was grateful for. That’s usually the first thing to go when I get sick, I can’t get enough air in to really hold a note (today I am suffering from it). I remember Sue and Gerlinda both played a lot of songs they don’t play often. I remember playing the theme song to my fake cartoon show at some point, which doesn’t really have any words. I remember making a lot of jokes, which may or may not have been funny. I played the new song and broke a string during the last chorus, and so I just finished it a cappela, which I don’t think I would have done without the aid of mind-altering cold medicine. I remember the crowd being bigger than I had expected, and thanks to everyone who made it out. Those shows are always a lot of fun when the crowd is a good size and they’re really enjoying themselves and you can work off them.

But still, I think I’m forgetting a lot of other things. I hope everyone had a good time.

me and songs

So, I write songs. Here’s how.

I have always written the music first. I’ll have an idea for the verse and chorus, sometimes the bridge, too. I’ll have a melody line in mind. At that point I will make sure I have it down on a microcassette (finest investment I ever made). I usually have 2 or 3 song ideas floating around at one time. Once I get it sort of concrete I’ll try not to play it until I’m ready to write the lyrics.

The lyrics always take the longest. I learned early on that if I started the lyrics, and then stopped halfway through thinking, well, there’s half a song, I’ll finish it up later, when I come back to it it’s gone and I can’t recapture it. So, I have to write the lyrics in one shot. Also, for some reason, I only write late at night. A friend made a joke recently that it’s like Philip K. Dick receiving transmissions from VALIS. I like that idea. Either way, it only works at night. So, if I’m going to write a song, it means I’m not going to bed until the morning. So, usually it requires a conscious decision to write a song that night. Which is not to say that’s always the case… sometimes I’m just messing around with a song idea and I start to scribble down a few lines and suddenly I’m halfway in and I realize I’m doomed because now I have to finish it, because it’s moved from “random ideas” to “unfinished song.”

It used to vary more, how I got the lyrics. But lately I find I seem to follow the same pattern. I get the title first. I think this may be one of the more atypical things about how I write. Sometimes I’ll just see a phrase, and think, that would be a great song title, I have to write that. Other times I know what it is I want to say, but I can’t move forward without a title to hang the idea on.

The newest song was like that. I had three ideas floating lately, one of them the three-chord song I mentioned before, a slow one on the baritone guitar, and the one I finally wrote last week. It had been claimed by an idea a little while ago, but I needed something to hang it on. I knew I wanted to write something political, which has always been difficult for me… I have listened to way too much overt political music, most of which ends up sounding preachy and condescending. Which has kept me from doing much of it myself, even though I tend to be pretty politically minded.

It seems stupid that I didn’t just do what I’ve done with most of my more personal songs, which is slap an obscure metaphor on it and let them figure it out. Doubly stupid since I tend to use political metaphors a lot for personal songs, it seems obvious that I could just so the opposite.

But sometimes the obvious escapes me.

And, everyone understands I feel pretentious as hell explaing all of this, right?